It's Been A While

It's been a while since I updated and I actually thought about stopping blogging completely, but I don't know if I can actually cut the cord. I enjoy getting my thoughts on paper and enjoy hearing from others about things they have read that I have written. I know that I was not created to be a writer and I honestly can say that I have no desire to be a writer of any kind. I do have a passion for grammar and correct spelling, which helps well in my career. I think I write this blog to please other people, to make other people laugh, to give them something to fill their time. I am learning as I grow up that life isn't about pleasing others. This is very hard for me to grasp, as I am in a field that is all about others and not myself. I have trouble really knowing who I am and knowing what makes me happy and I think part of this stems from trying to make everyone else happy. I am very self-conscious about what others think of me. I don't think I have a low self-esteem, per se, but I am always aware of how others look at me and how I come off to others. I find this a fault in myself, but I am not sure how to "fix" it. My life consists of daily soul searching, and that search feels like I am wandering around in circles. I am hoping for an epiphany some day and am hoping to figure out who I really am, but I am starting to wonder if that will ever happen.

As I continue this blog, I think it's going to take a more serious turn and be more about what I am doing to figure things out in this life. I am lacking a lot of passion for writing on here, but I am hoping that as I grow as a person, that passion will grow with me.

I love my few loyal readers and I hope that this blog is something that you enjoy and will continue to read. I am anxious to see what is in store for me as I continue on my journey.

Oh Valentine's Day

Oh Valentine's Day... I love you... Why? Because I am in love? Because I am a sap? Because I love pink and purple cards? NO! Because you provide me with darling little pure sugar, flavored hearts known as Conversation Hearts. Oh how I love you Valentine's Day!

It's Hump Day

That title always makes me giggle. I can't help it that I think like a child... I mean, I am around them all day!

So, Holly and I think we have a supernatural visitor living in our apartment. Ben thinks he has one too. The other day I was getting some water. The light was off in the kitchen and I went to get a cup and then opened the fridge to get the pitcher of water out. I opened the fridge and not only did the fridge light turn on, the overhead light turned on. The light switch is too far away for me to have bumped it and Holly was in her room when it happened. Bandit wasn't there so he couldn't have jumped up and gotten it. I think Casper did it. There was another time that Holly heard giggling outside her door. She opened it thinking I was on the phone or something but no one was there. I wasn't even at the apartment and I don't think Bandit can giggle. Creepy!! I will let you know if anything else paranormal goes on :)

PMS

There is no amount of medicine or anti-depressant that could help me with my PMS moodiness. I think it just takes over my mind and body and I hate it. I am agitated and irritated all the time, especially at school. I just don't know what to do.... :(

Good finds

#3 for the week! Rock on! I found some pretty cool things while at Dillon's the other day. The first thing I found was a pencil pouch. This might not sound too neat, but my sister and I spent quite a while looking for one. I mean, who wouldn't have thought to look at the grocery store first?

The other thing I found was a little bottle that had cinnamon and sugar mixed together! How awesome! Now I can make cinnamon toast without having to mix the cinnamon and sugar together! Yay! Needless to say, I had two pieces of cinnamon toast this morning with my Multigrain Cheerios. Don't worry, I didn't use real butter. I used Land O Lakes buttery spread with no cholesterol. Yummy :)

I'm Posting!!

This is my second time in a week! Woo-hoo!! I figured out why it is so hard for me to blog. Most (probably all) of the people who read this blog, I just talk to on an almost daily basis and therefore don't feel like I have much to say. My mom told me to throw something out there that was completely false and see how many people would figure it out or say something. I don't know if I am that desperate yet. :)

My resolutions are going ok. Not great, not horrible. I am not doing well with the running/walking thing AT ALL! The other health ones are going well... although I don't know my cholesterol score right now, so I don't know if it has gone down.

Most of the cleaning ones are going very well, which is something completely new to me. I am not used to having such a clean room and bathroom. :)

I went up to see my sister this week and have only eaten out 1x this week so far. I also haven't watched much tv at all this week, either during the week or on the weekend or when I am with Ben. It has been really nice.

I am working on getting through my first book of the month, The Memory Keeper's Daughter. I really enjoy it, but the past few nights I have been too tired to sleep! Hopefully I will get some reading done this weekend.

I haven't gone up to school yet this month, but I think I will have to go up this coming weekend. I am getting things ready to start with centers next week and I have some things to get organized and put in place before we start that. I have been using my plan time pretty well, but I haven't gotten much planned for next week, so I may be up there doing that.

I am planning on going to church with my brother this coming Sunday. I have been to the church before and really like it. I think it will just be tough to get up and get going on Sundays. They were usually my day to sleep in.

Overall I would say that things are going a lot better than they normally do and although I am not doing awesome with all my resolutions I am doing pretty well with them. I hope to be back sooner rather than later to blog some more!

It's 2009!

Wow... I can't believe it's 2009! I love new beginnings and fresh starts. I only wish that New Years would start on a Monday. I have a list of resolutions, but am too OCD to have tried to start them on a Thursday. The bulk of them will be started tomorrow. My mom, sister, and I have become resolution accountability partners and I am hoping this will help me keep my resolutions and not lose sight of them in just a few weeks. For my blog readers out there here are my resolutions:

Health
Eat out only 2x a week
Walk/run 3x a week
Lower cholesterol before June
Drink 4 cups of water a day

Home
Pick up at the end of each day
Stick to cleaning schedule:
M- Dust
T- Water Plants
W- Empty Trash
R- Clean bathroom/scrub
F-
Sa- Laundry
S- Vacuum, Grocery Shop

Spiritual
Do a daily devotional
Find a new church
Increase prayer time

Career/Job
Use plan time more effectively
Only go up to school 2 weekends or less a month
Clean out supplies in the classroom
Create an effective recording process

Family
See Jenny and the boys at least once a month
See Jeremy at least twice a month
Work daily with Bandit on training

Relationship
Date night twice a month
Spend less time watching TV

Financial
Get savings up to $7500
Open a 403B
Open ING accounts for a ring, camera, and car
Rods paychecks can only go to a savings account
Have a spend-free week once a month

Personal
Only 4 hours of TV on the weekends
Read 2 books a month
Create something once a week
Blog at least 4x a week


Check out that last one! I am really hoping to jump back on the bandwagon and start posting again. I know that I seem to say that about once a month, but with my accountability partners, I hope that they really push me to keep up with it. Thank you to those few who have stuck with me and are still reading this. I love you all!