It's Been A While

It's been a while since I updated and I actually thought about stopping blogging completely, but I don't know if I can actually cut the cord. I enjoy getting my thoughts on paper and enjoy hearing from others about things they have read that I have written. I know that I was not created to be a writer and I honestly can say that I have no desire to be a writer of any kind. I do have a passion for grammar and correct spelling, which helps well in my career. I think I write this blog to please other people, to make other people laugh, to give them something to fill their time. I am learning as I grow up that life isn't about pleasing others. This is very hard for me to grasp, as I am in a field that is all about others and not myself. I have trouble really knowing who I am and knowing what makes me happy and I think part of this stems from trying to make everyone else happy. I am very self-conscious about what others think of me. I don't think I have a low self-esteem, per se, but I am always aware of how others look at me and how I come off to others. I find this a fault in myself, but I am not sure how to "fix" it. My life consists of daily soul searching, and that search feels like I am wandering around in circles. I am hoping for an epiphany some day and am hoping to figure out who I really am, but I am starting to wonder if that will ever happen.

As I continue this blog, I think it's going to take a more serious turn and be more about what I am doing to figure things out in this life. I am lacking a lot of passion for writing on here, but I am hoping that as I grow as a person, that passion will grow with me.

I love my few loyal readers and I hope that this blog is something that you enjoy and will continue to read. I am anxious to see what is in store for me as I continue on my journey.